Stupid Excuses

lalala~~~

2005-12-18T08:05:00.000-08:00

ks asked for ur email..

lalala~`

2005-12-14T05:36:00.000-08:00

Update here my dear!
Oh, I'm going crazy..
Work is boiling me these days..
Applicants and the kpos they bring!
Oh god..
Anyway, Tung Soo Hua came!!!
She applied for her parents..
Can't put this on my blog cuz i promised her i wont tell the world..
I mean it's suppose to be private.. So ya.
I GOT HER AUTOGRAPH and her photo!!!
YAYAYAYAYA!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
oh wellsss, in case u're asking, u know her right, the newscaster..
Anyway, hope u're feeling better..
Come out some day k? If not i'll go crazy at work..
Like so ALONE..
Chirstmas shopping?
Or shall we go celebrate chirstmas!
=D..
Wells, waiting for ur reply k?

p.s. Kaiwei asked about u.. He said u refuse to talk to him.. ?_?..
*i didn't say a thing*

p.s.s. UNCLE BEN.. U READ MORE AND UR EYEBALLS WILL FALL OFF.. :P

lalala~`

2005-11-18T01:28:00.000-08:00

Ya right.. He doesnt like u..
o_O.. I'll still stick with my view..
Anyway, i'm like sian-ed about prom le..
DIE.
haha..
GO OUT.. SURE WILL/MUST..
oh yeaa....
Anyway, don't leave this blog k.. haha

2005-11-09T05:51:00.000-08:00

hahaha...
thanks you soo much.
i also missed u so much =)
haha...tml no paper so i can blog..just read your entry.
hahaha..
yea..kaiwei told me le..thanks btw.
he told me on msn.
aiya..my mother siao de la..keep saying this and that. rubbish.
actually...not really his fault la..its me.
cos i never control then she "control" loh..
but then..
wth rite?
hahah..wadeva.
aiya..
i think i have been causing u all so much trouble liao..feel so bad sia.
some more..u know the "going to laptak's house" is like so kena forced loh.
sian..
wadever it is...7 more papers!
i'm counting down...now
haha.
i'm lookin forward to prom and all =)
i want my chalet!
hahaha..
anyways..thank you so much for being there..always being there!
hahaa...O level finish must EVERYDAY go out..
lols..
i crazy le
go mug for maths!
jiayou..
aye..i think no la..wad kaiwei likes me..
we're just good friends.
haha..he got ppl he like in his church leh..
lols...bu yao luan xiang.
=)

all the best!
love ya =D

lalala~~~~~~~~

2005-10-26T18:09:00.000-07:00

no la..
Its okay..
At least half the time i wasn't listening..
Perhaps.. Sometime when she starts to scold u..
U ''start to break down'' and start screaming about how bad is it for parents to call their children's friends..
HAHAHA..
Then maybe she'll understand more bah?
Or ask her to call me i tell her..
* stands up and wave*
*ABISH*
*stands up again and wave*
Oh ya..
Just read ur blog.. She called Jack?

Anyway, No Hp? No phone?
WE STILL HAVE THIS!
LAMENESS.COM right?
Please update here so i can know whats happening..
Most importantly, have u DIED? O_O

Btw, Kaiwei says its his fault ur hp kena confiscated ah?
Cuz he sms u too much?
HE SAYS SO
TRUE?
And he told me that he says " SORRY"

This is how it went..
*beep*
*xT` opens a msg she just recieved*
O_O ~why wld Kaiwei send msg to me?~
*opens msg*

-msg contents-
Hey Hilow When you meet elim can you tell her that i am sorry for what happen if she is angry i don't hold it against her and if she ignores me it is ok thanks
-msg ends-

Think he likes u?
*thinkin*
HAHAHA..
aNyway, do update more PLEASE..
miss u!

2005-10-24T22:15:00.000-07:00

i'm so sorry
as i've said
it's always me..
i'm always the one.
i'm so sad.
i don care.

i dono what are they doing la
i just wanna scold..vulgarities
hahaa
*&^%##$%^&(&&&#^
so shuang
haha
no la..
i dint
but it's nice knowing someone always there to listen to all my rubbish
thank you xt~
=)

lala!!!``

2005-10-24T20:14:00.000-07:00

eh! ur mum called!

lalala~`

2005-10-07T08:47:00.000-07:00

Ya.. so moody.. I don't know..?
Oh.. i love swimming..
Jiayou for os!
Oh.. thx for the encouragement..
But i get the email le dun dare to talk to him!
ohh goddd..
Anyway, my result suck..
My house suck..
i wanna study she dun let.
i dun wanna study she wanna force? crazy..!
i miss me him u! ah!
mixed

2005-10-06T03:40:00.000-07:00

haven blog here for a very long time.
we had fun swimming!
=)

u okay?
these few days see u like very mooody.
got alot of things inside?
mmmm...
like u wanna cry but cannit cry.
dont worry la..
if got anything must tell me kies?
don get sad over that horoscope thing la..
i know u're not sad cos of that..
its cos of other things rite?
don think too much la
got stuff must tell me leh.
even if u are going to tell me u hate me =X

yea...just say..
don keep everything inside u..
yar?
jiayou for O levels!
i'm sad about my results..
like shit..
i'm scaredddddd...
very scared...
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*maybe..

ocksrtx

2005-09-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

OH.. Don't be sad la!
OH.. I'M SAD..
OH.. WAN GRAB DUN WAN DUN THINK..
OH.. dont be too troubled over it!..
OH.. JIAAAYOUUU

la..

2005-09-25T03:26:00.000-07:00

Don't give up going to church cuz of him la..
Don't say disappear also!
CUZ,
1. Very irresponsible.
2. U go to church not because of him.. K?

Oh..
I don't care about them.. Really. Got no funny reaction like that. sO i guess, its just infactuation.
OOK..
Yesterday was great. But the planning abit funny.
I felt that Jiamin didn't know what she wanna say.
Hmm. ya. But kangyang went rite. so.. ya..
LiJun's a funny girL?
AND, Kangling's nice.. :P

...
I hate my home, my bro n my mum.
Both of them keep finding fault with me.
Today i kena scolded 3 times for nothing. Until i throw plate at them then they shut up.
HAIZ.. DAMN IT.

2005-09-16T22:54:00.000-07:00

lolss...
i dono whether he reads anot..
anyways..
i think i'm gonna succeeed
yes la..
i'm going to church today.
no..
i just wanna come here and say..
i'm so sorry!!
okie..my stupid mama.
actually i can escape de..
cos she 10pm then come home..
i can run away first.
sorry ah..cos it's always me, me and me.
it's always me!
wad's wrong with me?!
i cant understand myself..
i'm sad..i wanna study!
boo!!

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don worry bout the neo print la..
hahaha..
we can go pai until satisfied rite?!
pic ture only..
and it only kena me mah..not u..
haha...wallet can wash!
ahaha..
sians..going out later..
then i dono where to disappear to le..
cos after church...don feel like going homee...at all..
eeeee.
i hate this feeling in mee..
hope to see u soon!
study hard for prelims!
jiayoujiayoujiayou!

taddaaaa！

2005-09-16T00:36:00.000-07:00

I didn't get the letter. Don't think i'll get it bah? Forget it! i don't care de..!
KS? yes.. sad sad.. 2 years very long meh? hmm! ..
Hard to pick up hard to put down?
Dunno.. sad sad..
I'm nt cold blooded..
.
.
.
.
yet.

Dont bleach away memories..
Cuz u learn from them!
Its like tat de la! breathe in breathe out! And don't think about it le..!
He don't read ur blog? How u know le.
But since he nv open his eyes and treasure the people around him, then why u wanna suffer for his doings right! Live ur life~!
Dont let him affect u..
Xi huan jiu xi huan.
Bu yao wei le ta fang qi ni.
Put pass? put lo.. BUT.
must tell me the pass.. hehe!
Dont msg lo.. CONTROL!
u can choose not to see him de mah!..
Dont look lo.
Don't give up going to church cuz of him..
i know. u're nt giving up! u just wanna disappear..
BUT.. CANNOT.
cuz u're a responsible girl!
DONT FANG QI K..
*sobs* my neoprint spoil..
.
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.
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my wallet..
*sobs x2*

2005-09-14T00:33:00.000-07:00

o wellss..
wad did he say in the letteR?
no la..
trust me..u wont like him again.
cos u love me.
haha..no i mean..if it's all over..then put it in the past..
don think anymore..
u'll just be hurting yourself..
haha..
now i'm counsellor ling..
yes..
seriously..
don think anymore!
u still have so many people.
and ks..
u said..
if it's meant to be..
it'll be..
if it's not..
don ever think it'll happen
ir's veri good when u're friends already rite?
2yrs is long to me u know..
get on with your life la..
haha..
love me!
anyways..
your uncle ben thing very funny
haha.
can i copy your "cold blooded animal" on my blog?
haha..
thankss...
love ya =)

2005-09-14T00:26:00.000-07:00

sometimes i blog..
i dono it's for who
isit for him?
but i know he doesnt read..
he only read hers..
and his own..
he doesnt even care.
mybe i think too negatively..
maybe i really should put a pass..
hhaaa.
maybe i should just die la..
pride: maybe..
lols..
i love that word.
i saw dennis botak liao
still looks okie bah..
i saw it on jody's blog..
haha..he's like so sad,
no i'm not gonna msg him or smth.
let time lessen my feelings
hahaa..
time will bleach it all away!
yess..
believe..
i think we shouldnt be so sad la hor?
happier!
read my blog.
anyways..
i reallie feel like disappearing..
i don wanna see him..
i don wanna hurt myself!
hahaha..
i'm kidding.
but seriously i don feel like seeing him..
for no matter what reason it is..
i don wantt to see him!
help me gerll..
i don wanna fall so deep..
cos falling is no fun at all..
yes...
it'll make us bleedd..

xT the super duper!

2005-09-13T02:08:00.000-07:00

YOU

BETTER

NOT

READ

OR ELSE..

.

.
.
U know i'm sad?
How u know! ACTUALLY?
I don't know how i feel. MIXED.
See see no harm what!
Try to forget him.. But don't try too hard..
Cuz its not good.
Whatever it is, GOD IS IN CONTROL!
*got it frm somewhere*
Haaaaahaaaa! I'm counseller Loy u see..
Don't disappear, cuz then i'll be alone..
Haa!!!..
Oh. He walked pass today. But ''didn't'' see me.. :(
I saw him looking at our direction once..
Or is my xin li zhuo yong?
We glanced into each other's eyes once also..
But i shall forget it ever happened? ya!
Saw my friend on the way.
He bought sunflowers.
He dun wanna give me.
idddddddddddiiiiiiiiiioot. ha!!

update at 12.02..

i know where the letter went already. he passed it to weixiang. wx told saran and saran told me.. hmmm? i'm thinking about it.. but watever it is, i HOPE its all over. I dun wanna start again..

I'm sad this time.. ks talked to me. i put on my nick 'she loves u. trust me'.

he msn me.. ''who love me''

hmmm? i dunno... i dunno.. i just wanna be a cold blooded animal.. i don't want my emotionS!

2005-09-12T23:22:00.000-07:00

lols.
yes i read..
lols...
sunflower huh? well thanks =)
i feel better after talking to u...u also jiayou la..i know u veri sad nowadays.
hahah...i've been controlling myself..not to look at his blog..
but i failed! i dono wad's wrong with mi...
die..
i hope nobody elses see this except u.
i scared ben see..
stupid me.
hahaha..
nvm la..see see loh.
haiz..i'm also sad.
i'm sadder then u..but i'm fine after talking..
haha..both of us shall jiayou for prelim!
jiayoujiayoujiayou!
lols..
we can do well!
if we want rite?!
yesyes!
lols..jiayou everyone.
i wanna diappear from the earth..
or rather from this country..
=P
dono..just don wanna see anyone i know..then i don wanna feel so sad.
outing with dennis was alright..
okok loh.
nothing special happen..lols..
except the mooncake part!
lols...
anyways..
don think so much kies?
u think so much i'll think even more..so we'll both feel so sad.
once again..jiayou.
got time go blog at my blog la.
tml's chinese prelim..
haha..we can study at home!~
cool.
jiayoujiayou!
sunflower rocks! =)

lahhhh blahh hahhhhh

2005-09-08T01:38:00.000-07:00

Of cuz i got read. But this blog is so sad.. So long nv update.
Each time i come here, no new updates.
haiz..
Anyway, see! While i'm melting at home, u're in the movies!
Of cuz u'll feel nervous, cuz u've not seen each other for a long time.
He wanna ask others along?
But he nv say dun wanna go out with u rite!
Jia youuuu!!!!
Enjoy k.. Sure u are.. WATCHING MOVIE ONLI.
plus GOT NICE THING TO EAT..
haiz.. xt, u're so kelian ah.. at home onli..
go out also alone.. so sad..
u are saddist xt..
haha.
u got go pasar malam? got thing to see not. i wanna go le!
haha.
i wanna watch herbie fully loaded and the perfect catcH!

Dont think so much k.. He's going jail soon. So can go out with him! IT'S A GREAT THING.
but of cuz, with me is the best. haha..
Update more ok..

update read update reply!

oH!!!! Good luck for the competition tml k!
Jiayou jiayou jiayoU!
sunflower's always there for u!

stopped blogging?~

2005-09-07T20:32:00.000-07:00

mm...have we stopped blogging? i'm thinking.
msged dennis till 2++ yesterday.
i'm so sad.
we drifted apart..
but still..thanking u to give mi the courage to ask him out for lunch/dinner.
haha..
but i'm sad..out of nowhere..i'm sad!
cos he usually will ask mi out only..as in if i wanna ask others..he'll say "but zhe shi wo gen ni de shi leh" that kinda things.
now he wanna ask others along..
nan mian feel abit sad la hor?
i dono..i'm confused.
maybe he thinks that we too long never talk le..see each other veri ps?
that's my conclusion.
anyways..they cannot make it.
now it's worst.
i dono wad to say to him when we meet..
i'm feeling nervous!
1st time..
diee...how?!
save mi..
he's just a korkor to mi..and he can make mi nervous!
hahaha...funny.
i know know know i don don don don and will never never never like him.
he's not my type.
we ust talk alot.
hahaha..
sian..wad should i wear later..

u got read not...
hmmm....=)

the super pissed entry..

2005-08-26T19:23:00.000-07:00

she shared her problems with me. well, thankss. i'll be there always for yaa. tml we shall talk during our tutoringg. wEeEe. now i noe.. theres a girL.. being so jealous of me.? keep ''stabbing'' me by my back? u think i give a damn to u? lAllaLa! u're so attitudee. go around spreading bout me and him. saying this and that. and plp come ask me. diao? grow up pls! but i really cant understandd.. a guy + a girl = cannot be good frens? must be bgr? diao~ tsk tskk. ~.~

* this is from shumei's blog.. WTH.. SHE SAY I WTF SO SPREAD ABT HER N KS.. i wanna punch her face burn her house pull her hair feed her poison kick her butt scream at her dig out her eyeballs and disfigure her ok.. BTW, I NV SPREAD.. IS NOT ME.. IS HER BELOVED SARANPAL ASK ME THEN I ASK TY..

lalalaaa!

2005-08-23T04:47:00.000-07:00

Read ur blog.. Wow.. What talking u.. and and and dont think too much about ur mum la! She'll shut up soon, and besides, u've explained. No one holds it against u!

Argh! So many things in my heart!

We nv talk for two days le.. I'm sad.. Guess it was meant to be. I mean, ya.. I'll just have to believe its fated.. Everything's fated.. The friends drifting apart, me n him nv possible, even me and u.. Being beST FRIENDS.. all the moqi and all! haha.. this i'm happy abt la..

haiz.. sad sad sad sad sad sad me...

2005-08-23T02:24:00.000-07:00

oppsy..sorrie
dint get to update..cos my brother snatch my com!
hahaha..
don worry gerl..don think too much la
hongsheng's just kidding..=)
anyways..
sorrie!
i mean..dint mean to make it so obvious..i was just playing..
haha..
enjoy your day out with your gang!
eee..
i'm feeeling moody again!
dono...
cos of paul?
ee..i dono.
hahaha...scary..
i wanna feel hapie!
anyways...
5566 got 3rd album!!
out liao!!
ee..i so tempted!

lalala~`

2005-08-19T23:54:00.000-07:00

no more updates? haiz.. sad sad blog. anyway.. Two months to my birthday..

lala!`

2005-08-13T21:14:00.000-07:00

haiz.. Elim.. I'm really givin up on my life.. Yesterday i told myself.. Forget him.. n i DID..
tooday i woke up.. he added me on msn.. haiz..
HOwever i delete him n blocked him..
why must he torture me like that..
After my happy chat with ks.. haiz..

lalala~`

2005-08-11T03:47:00.000-07:00

i need cash! haha..
thx.. lets hope he just leaves me alone apart from the money thing.. seriously..
If he want me to forget hiim.. Why cant he just leave me alone.. ?

2005-08-10T07:34:00.000-07:00

jiayou xt!!
i kow it's hard on u.
u have to go on living...even if it's for mi.
wahah..
go buy the shoes.
jiayou jiayou!!
u can do it!
i'm always here,
come to mi if u need anything okays!
cyaz in school tml!

loving ya!

xt'S

2005-08-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

guess wat.. Shaohao tagged at my board and told me to move on n give up on him or else i'll be the one losin out..

My day is ruined by him!

i'm at tears...

2005-08-08T07:26:00.000-07:00

just wanna let u know! although i dun realli wanna accept ur help + consoling.. but i really appreciate it! reallY!

lalala~`

2005-08-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

i know its up to me..
Maybe it's just another emotional day.. hAIZ..
wanna forget it soon.. wanna forget it ever happened..
if u free help me le.. go my blog.. n see those entries with him in.. just erase his name (dP) .. or if the whole entry is abt him.. just delete.. can?
if u're free la.. i'll do some too..

freakoxinting- user
8973841i - password..

step out of it?!

2005-08-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i got mixed feelings.. awhile i told myself.. i knew this wouldnt work out.. so i stopped thinkin abt it
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
but it came back..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
sh?
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i always tot it would nt end this way.. i reall HOPED and wished it'll turn out fine.. cuz i know.. deep in my heart i'll not be able to let go of it
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
no matter how i tried.. i failed.. i've nv fell so deep b4
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
and i dun want it to be like tat..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
when i ended it.. it was a moment of rashness..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
something i nv tot i wld wanna do.. and something i did not in the right state of mind..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i really want those times to come back.. i miss tt world..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
cuz he was in it..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
he came in.. but nv left my mind.. but unfortunately.. its diff for him..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i keep wondering..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
why did i do it..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
why didnt i wanna tell him how i felt earlier...
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
iz..
___________ adidas__________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
help me blog this out le at stupidexcuses
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
relax gerll..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u'll get over him de la
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
maybe he'ss your longest
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
and u all have alot of memories together.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u cant just stop there..must move on rite?
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
ya
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i'm trying to..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i know it's hard.

___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
but its rd.. i cant accept the fact..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i know you're trying..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
wat my mum says is rite..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
once i get hooked.. i cant get out..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
ive been crying the whole day..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
thinkin and thinkin.. but i still cant get ove rit..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
how i want to.. the desire is overbearing me.. the desire to reliive the days tt i miss..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
then dont miss it?
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i mean..seriously,,wads done cannot be undone..u have to move on
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
no matter how hard..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u just gotta step out of it
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i tot i did.. but although i dun tink abt it..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
its like everything in my dreams.

[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
relax gerll..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u'll get over him de la
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
maybe he'ss your longest
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
and u all have alot of memories together.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u cant just stop there..must move on rite?
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
ya
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i'm trying to..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i know it's hard.
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
but its rd.. i cant accept the fact..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i know you're trying..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
wat my mum says is rite..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
once i get hooked.. i cant get out..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
ive been crying the whole day..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
thinkin and thinkin.. but i still cant get ove rit..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
how i want to.. the desire is overbearing me.. the desire to reliive the days tt i miss..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
then dont miss it?
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i mean..seriously,,wads done cannot be undone..u have to move on
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
no matter how hard..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u just gotta step out of it
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i tot i did.. but although i dun tink abt it..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
its like everything in my dreams.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
the wake up?
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u reallie cannot still leave in that world le
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u got your life.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
you've got everything
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
the world will still go round no matter how hard u tried to live in the past.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i have to move on to the future.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
he's not the only guy.
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i know..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
but i've nv fallen so deep..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
i dun wake up for no reason ok..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
just like today i sleep until 2 plus
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
wake up still tot 9 ok

[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
aiyooo..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i think u think too much lee..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
seriously..
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
its like i see glenn n shiya.. 2gether agn
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
jun n jac agn
___________ that world was everything to me __________ 7thAugust [lameness.com] [E.A.U] [tymes2.inc] says:
Haiz..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
its reallie up to u to decide whther u wanna move on n get rid of that ass in your head.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
so wad others are togther again
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
i've been single for like my whole sec school life.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
so wad? cos i know there'll be better person wwaitin for mi
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
if u keep thinking that he's not gonna come back..
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
u'll onli feel more miserable
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
if u think someone better is gonna come,it'll make u feel better rite?
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
not as if u get tgt le, u'll get married n live happily ever after
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
not as if u get tgt le, u can guarantee u wont break uo again.
[smiles] C squared [BaoJia] [lameness.com][E.A.U] says:
rite?

this was our conversation.
it's reallie up to u to decide whehter u wanna move on anot.
seriously,
the decision is yours.
jiayou.

xt

2005-08-07T05:55:00.000-07:00

thx elim..

BUT sorry..

I'm not that strong.. And i'll never be..

2005-08-07T05:19:00.000-07:00

when it's raining out there, it's raining in my heart
But when the sun shines, my heart still rains...

wrong wrong wrong!
u must say..
when it's raining out there,it's sunshine in my heart
But when the rain stops, the sun never goes..

yes...that's the spirit!

2005-08-07T05:11:00.000-07:00

aiyo gerlll!!
it's only a matter of time la...
of course u loved him b4..if not how could u all end up together rite?
maybe he's just trying to help u forget him also..that's y he said that he forgotten u?
maybe it's a good thing he already forgot u
relationship don last long in sec. school ya?
must give and take, take and put.
relax la..
it's ONLY a matter of time??!
i guess u can do it gerl...u can la
if he can, y cant u?
if everybody is like u..i guess there'll be suicidal cases everyday?
jiayou! hang on.
the world doesnt only have him...u still got mi! =))
haha...moreover..
(no offence) i think u can find other better guys then him..
like your gozali.
haha...although u dont like him..
i'm just stating an example
u can do it..
u're not as fragile as i think u are..
so stop dropping yourself down to that kinda "fragile" state.
u're much stronger then that.
jiayou!
hahah...i'm always here.

xt's sad..

2005-08-07T03:23:00.000-07:00

Elim.. help me.. I'm so sad.. I can't stop crying..
I've never felt like this before..
I just wanna sleep and forget the whole world..
We smsed.. Started off with him owing me money.. Then we talked about our selationship..
I couldnt help my emotions..
I just spilt everything out..
I cant get over him..
I know i shouldnt have.. But i did..
He said he's gotten over me.. And we can nv be together again..
I started crying//
I regret it..
i really loved him.. N i cant get over him.. moreover, It wasnt just a fling..
It was emotions i've nv experienced before..
I know i seem to be normal and everything.
But deep in my heart.. I dunno how to express my emotions..
I'm still crying.. I dunno where to put my face.. my heart.. my emotions and MY PAST..
perhaps i'm just useless..
I'm stupid! why did i.. i wanna jump into the sea.. I wanna end my life.. my memories.. my feelings.
WHY IS EVERYONE BACK TOGETHER..
but it's impossible for me now.. WHY...
i'm sad.. elim.. i'm sad..
why why why.. :'(
Why did i let myself fall so deep..
How could i let myself fall so deep..
ELIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lalala~`

2005-08-05T08:03:00.000-07:00

He talked to me!

lalala~`

2005-08-04T07:48:00.000-07:00

ohhh u hate me! so sad..
Haiz!!! u sexy lady thats why got bian tai wanna get to know you! haha
ohhh... ks just talked to me online..
sAy i break his heart.. I dun wanna reply him ah..
Everytime talk rubbish!
CONTROL!!!!

Don't think so much man~!
It's normal.. Guess what..
i Tested someone, and her reaction like ur's..

read....
*conversation b/w xt n joyce during peer tutoring
xT: Haiz.. so boring..
Joyce: ya! wanna go out after remedial tml?
xT: i'm meeting fizzy! hafiz-zy.. wanna go?
*Joyce's face turns black*
joyce: Don't wan la! i dont talk to him ANYMORE...
xT: go la! tot u all v close. always sms..
Joyce: *irritated* NO MORE LA. DONT WAN MEANS DUN WAN.
xT: then ok lo..

SOOO! seee... her reaction is like ur's.. u know u dun like him.. jus like she dun like fiz.. cuz i know who she like.. But she will feel this way.. cuz she feel sad.. why he got other friends to talk to le den dun wanna talk to her or chai her! but dun feel so sad ok! i _(''v'')_ u! hahhha!

2005-08-03T04:27:00.000-07:00

i just read paul's blog..
he just cares for her moree......
wad's wrong with mi!?!
seriously..
i know i dont like him..
i know i onli treat him like a veri good fren
i know deep down i'm fine..
maybe i'm just jealous?!
she gets all she wans and i'm here getting all this shit.
i don wan!
i wanna be a veri nice a good christian...
like setting good examples and all..
so that i can be good examples to lead u all to know GOD.
but the circumstances don allow mi!!!

grrr...
i'm soo pissed off..
i don like her i don like her!!
how how how!

anws,,,it's reallie becomin a habit i msg paul n dennis everyday..
habit veri hard to change u know...
grrr...
i'm getting itchy
i got loads of things to do!!
i don wanna do!
i just wanna play my piano..
talk to u..
go out n ton.

i cant i cant!
haha..i'm moody again.
y cant anyone understand?!!
and there's this sicko on my msn who keeps talking to mi?!
she's a galll...but she's eeuuuuuuuu...eeeks..yucks.

i'm hoping he'll talk to mi
he do that everytime...last time.
not now..
should i start to talk?
i dono.
i'm so confused!!

ahh..better not talk...if not i'll say wrong things...
nonono...control is all u need.

ahh..
i realise i hate u even more now..
forget is all i need!

*ni kai xin,wo jiu kai xin

xiao kui rocks best!

i need u!!!

shining friends.

2005-08-03T03:34:00.000-07:00

Shining Friends___ *

A little faith
Brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult you can go away
Don`t hide yourself in a corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up
You`ll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow sunrise
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine, my friend
Won`t let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear, make my world disappear
You`ll never be alone in darkness

See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
You have got to believe, you are my destiny
We`re meant to be your friends
That`s what a friend should be

lalala~`

2005-08-02T03:13:00.000-07:00

The shoes yue kan yue hao kan! haha! I wan something like that. But more round le!

hmmm.. Sabo.. ME. He walked me home le.
Haiz.. Let's see. He's like that to every girl.
YA!
I know there's nth la.
Trust me.
Don't scare me.
I'm scared. When this happens.
I dont want guys to be nice to me.
First, Eden. All the treats and the quiksilver thing..
Then, blabla bla..
I'm scared. Cuz i know i'm not ready.
.. And perhaps i'll nv be.
I dont wanna fall again.
:(

lalala~`

2005-08-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

Wei Botak. ah! She nv go?! Then nv tell me. I could have gone le! Din't go tuition due to some unforseen circumstances! haha! yay! tml ps.
DUN PS ME AH.
relax la. Guess she's just afraid that Dennis will like u then u'll be together.
Dont worry ok.
Btw, my mum suspect i got bf le. Cuz serena calls and her friend calls.
hAh! so stupid. Then i let her see is serena call.
Relax ok.
Paul paul paul. Nvm de la. It's just infactuation.
It'll go off soon.. ok?
Don't worry la. I'll be here.
Don't cry cuz of Ur mum. yay?
CRY CUZ OF ME!
but if u really have to. Then cry it all out. Dont half way ok?
Haiz. Jun n Jac back 2gether agn..
Look at me? I'm really sad le.
Cried in class today during history cuz teacher not around.
Infront of sabbie. cuz i not here.
:(...

sorry girl!

2005-07-31T20:06:00.000-07:00

opps!! super duper sorrie =)
i pao qi u for 3 days le....will make it up to u de la =D
sat was feeling super bad..but recovered..
sunday worst...lols...cos of my mama la~!
cant stand her lo...
that's y today i never go school also..
cos yesterday nite the moment we reach home from popo house..
she scold mi bout dennis la.
this is the story la:
cos i msged dennis on sat,then i forgot to delete it away....
she saw! and she read loh..
then i kena..
i dono wad's wrong la..
she dont like mi to contact him and all...
grrr~ dono wad's she's thinking
then yesterday nite....she scold like shit..
i cry the whole nite...she cry..
-_-'' rite?
hahaha...but okie le la..i guess...
soo..this is the end!!
hahaha....thanks for reading..
help mi collect ws hor....
thanks!
love ya!!

oh ya....friday we celebrated huizhen and ben's birthday...
so nice!
then i was quite pissed of sith xiuqi la..
she got the ticket and she dint go for the concert loh!!
wad the shit..
then i was veri unhappy..
so i dint wanna talk and all...
and somemore..guess wad..
paul was there..
with her..-_-''
i mean i wasnt sad and alll seeing them together...just feeling veri funny..
so i dint talk to him at all..
haha..i can control!!!
lalala...
oh ya..he dint cum church on sat..
i dint contact him..
yay.. i can control.
aiya...he's just my veri good friend la...
lols....then i was angry with xiuqi from friday to sunday!
sunday i was veri sad..i dono y loh..
haha...
moody la.
today dint go school...slack at home.
oh ya,...prepare for the worst..u'll see my hair tml
haha...disasterous la.
=)
take care.
dont think too muchie!
=DD

*i'll be here for u!

xT

2005-07-29T09:12:00.000-07:00

hey.. How's ur performance?
V. fan ah..
Just cant seem to get over things..
Will u be there for me?
Dong jie.....

lalala~`

2005-07-27T04:47:00.000-07:00

Elim! sorry abt the shopping. Couldnt go there! ah.. Class was superrrrr boring w/o u. Trust me. And i'm gonna suffer a few more days! ohhh.. gooodddd.

2005-07-26T04:59:00.000-07:00

lalala...i'm here to blog!
thanks xt!!
lols...go eat la...eat till fat fat then happy rite?
eh...set private!

testin

2005-07-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

testin